30 days and counting....

So, I have actually 29 days left until my RPAO. I have mixed feelings at the moment. I have lost 33 lbs and I barely feel any pain or achiness. Sometimes I feel a twinge of tear pain or achiness at night but mostly it feels like I may not need the surgery. I guess I might be experiencing a little "cold-feet." I know I need the surgery but the pain level tells me otherwise. I am not cancelling it. I will have it done because it will help me but I hate the part of thinking whether I need it or not. Also, I have begun to feel similar pains in my left hip. Very subtle and achy at times when I am at work, driving or standing on the left leg. I dont know whether it is because I am using it more these days to strengthen it or if I may need an LPAO. I know a lot of women end up needing them both done, but as yet, I havent felt any issues with it. When I look at my xrays though, I do see some dysplasia but HEY I'm not a doctor, so I guess we will see and right now I am in no hurry to "hop" into another surgery recovery.
As the time gets closer, I have some many stresses rambling around in my brain. One being we have been wanting to have another child for many years (our oldest just turned 5) and so far no luck. I have PCOS and have had it for a long time (10+ years). Basically, I have a ton of horomones that cause my periods to be irregular or not at all, and if I do become preggo the horomones kill the egg. My 5y.o. is really a miracle. :) So the closer we get to my surgery, I am scared that I will become pregnant and not be able to have the surgery. Its so close I dont want it to go away, but if I am preggo, let's be honest....my hips can wait :D We haven't been doing anything differently. Same procedure, but not filling the tank if you get what I mean. But it would be just my luck to find out I am pregnant.

Another thing I am worried about is the fact that store will be franchised out either right before or while i am recovering. In the case that happens, I will be forced to return to work and re-apply for my job, and if I am on crutches, I dont know how physically capable they will see me. So I am worried about that, but since we are so close now, that is not likely.

Another things is that the insurance companies may decide its not necessary and deny the surgery. I may need to look into how to make sure these guys dont try no bull shit. And as far as my job goes, I am totally stressed about leaving my store for someone else to care for!! GAH!

Another thing is the week of and after my surgery. I will be spending a lot of hospital time alone without family (husband). Which will be lonely :( But I can do it and I will be home soon. And who knows, maybe someone will show up and keep me company.

In 16 days, Dec 6th is my appt with my PCP to get tests done and all that jazz before surgery. Blood tests, EKG, etc. Also we will be looking at my health since my weight loss so that will be cool to discus :D

And 3 weeks til my pro-op appointment. I called my surgeon's assistant to ask a couple ?'s One being about when to donate my blood. She let me know that at the location of Swedish Hospital that the surgery will take place, the facility does not store donated blood like that onsite because they cannot store it. So they told me unless I have any issues in my history or any issues currently, I do not need to donate my blood. They said they test mine before and then have what they have at the facility ready to go just in case. But they cant store patients blood there.

Until next post.... :)