Rain Rain, go away

WEDS 6/1

Today is a wonderful rainy day in Seattle, WA and it pretty much fits my mood. Today I need to call and make an appointment to get more pain meds. Every time they treat me like an addict and tell me that it doesn't really help. Um, Hello? It takes my pain down enough so that I can move and work and do daily life things. So I'm pretty sure it helps. And besides, its my right to have pain medicine if I am in pain. I am thinking though I may try to set up pain management instead of just asking for more pain pills. If I have to live with the pain I might as well manage it. I don't really know what there is to offer, but hopefully the doctor wont be so stingy and help me.

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THURS 6/2

Last night started with so much stiffness and pain I couldn't believe it. Yesterday I emailed my DR and asked for medication refill and got a response from another doctor suggesting I set up an appointment with my DR to start a pain management care plan. This probably would have been great for them to suggest like last year! LOL But I am curious what types of care plans are available. I definitely do not want to keep taking narcotic pain medication if there are better and safer ways to manage my pain. They did however refill my request for pain medicine and I am waiting for the pharmacist to fill it.

I think this may be the worst day of pain I have felt. I am going to actually look into getting a walking cane because The stiffness and clicking and loss of strength is terrible. The pain medicine is not taking it away and that is not a good sign. I'm a little more scared now. I do not want to have to depend on a cane and it is a pretty big blow to the ego that before I am even 30 I need help to walk. What will that say for me when I am older? I can only hope that this surgery (don't know which one or anything about it yet) will help tremendously.  I tried stretching, laying flat on my stomach, all the tricks I know, but to no avail. Basically...this just freaking sucks! I am so tired of being my hip and my life revolving on whether my hip is not feeling it today. Ok enough pity party for me...If I find a good cane I will post it :)