Beautiful things in life can be missed

I just wrote this ridiculously long blog and lost it. Bummer. Well first one so I guess its a lesson in patience. Welcome to my journey I hope you enjoy it and I also hope it may bring you some help as my searches for some wonderful ladies' blogs has helped me tremendously. When I started writing this I was very overwhelmed and many things came to mind. "Will anyone read this?" "How can I make this more interesting?" "Why would someone care about my story" "will they like me?" Well I know someone will read this because I was lucky to find a blog to cling to and received much help in listening to someone else's story and knowing they had one similar to mine and they knew. Interesting? Like living in constant pain, followed by a gruesome surgery which then leads to learning daily life all over again wasn't interesting enough? I know people will care about my story. Especially if one person is helped by the knowledge that someone else went through the same thing they did and lived. Will they like me? Where did that come from? lol


If you have ever watched the show "House" and seen the main character "House" then you would know he has knee pain. Well I find myself acting similar to him in many ways. I find it very hard to look at life the same way anymore when I am constantly living with pain that stops me from doing basic things and many things I love or loved at one point in my life. He is mean and is never happy. I used to find happiness everywhere and wake up so happy I couldn't help but smile. But now beautiful things in life can be missed. I could find happiness in many things like waking up to the sun so bright it blinds me by its light. Beautiful flowers standing so tall in a harsh world. Rainbows after the storm. The way my daughter says "I love you Mommy." The way my husband looks when he is sound asleep. These things are little things in life that make me happy and yet when I'm in pain can be so distant its very hard to cling to. I want to be a beautiful flower standing tall, but its hard to be strong when your stem is broken.


My story began when I was born. When I began walking my mother figured out something was wrong and took me to San Francisco Hospital and the doctors figured out I had congenital hip dysplasia. Which basically means hip dislocation at birth, and I am learning is very common actually! So after traction (a harness worn in hospital) and a full body cast for many months my hip was supposed to be ok.


At 16 while running in P.E. my hip went out and I went to do PT for 6 weeks. It seemed to help for a while. Lots of stretching the muscles, and heat pads, and the muscles were loosened up. A while being a few more years. And Since I was 18 The pain has been continuous.


Hi my name is Liane (Lee-AH-nuh  not Leaan) and I have DDH. I am married to the same man I have been with for 9 years and I am 28.We have a 4.5 yo named  Mickaela and I have 2 stepsons: Nate (14) and Danny (13). I have been living with this pain for 10 straight years. But up until now have not gotten a specific diagnosis and am now figuring out all about DDH. Everyday life is very hard. Walking, sleeping, eating, working, sitting, laying, being still, driving, sex, talking! Whew it affects all of me. Last year I went to see the Docs and after x-rays and examination they told me I have sciatica and needed to do PT and keep exercising to make it better. The pain seemed to dwindle but never really went away. That is when I started realizing I had 2 different types of pain. I had sciatica on the back side of my right hip which went away with movement and stretching and basically could be managed. And then I have the deep aching pain which also affects my knee and also groin clicking and outer hip pain also. The docs gave me little pain meds and basically told me it was all in my head. I mean really?! I actually started to believe it may have been all in my head too at one point. And then the pain came back the next day! LOL Well skip to last month when my husband and I moved our family into a new home by ourselves and I definitely over-worked my hip. I was in so much more pain than I have ever felt. I went back to the doctor and this time I saw someone else. I didn't care who I just needed some relief. It turns out that seeing another doctor was a great idea. He took another x-ray and WOW what a difference only one year has made. It is so obvious the gap is more pronounced than a year ago. Forgive me I am still learning all the lingo and will sound much more intelligent next time :) He said I have DDH (Developmental Dysplasia of the Hip) and that I need surgery. GAH!!! OMG so scary! He also said I need to look into getting a cane and proceeded to tell me about his dad who has "this really cool cane" that is glass and holds little glass flasks inside it and he fills them with different liquor which he can then drink while strolling around the town. LOL


I just got done reading this wonderful blog and decided maybe I should tell my story too. I have always found writing to help me and so far just writing about my feelings on this has helped. Well, except for the blog that was totally freaking awesome that just got deleted before this one! I go to see the surgeon on 6/16 and I am totally freaked. This will be the first meeting, of many to come I am finding out, with doctors. I know I need this to help me but I am totally freaked out. I am trying to find out everything I can and to learn all the things I need to know to arm myself. I know I will need it!!! Feel free to comment or msg me, I hope this helps someone, at least one person. Knowing someone else has gone through the same thing has helped me. I keep reading the same blog over and over and then I research the thing the blogger is talking about and then tracking that info into my own report so I can have that knowledge ready. I cant wait til I am fully trained in the matters of "HIP" Though by now I should be an expert. You know, I just remembered something one of the doctors told me last year when they said it was all in my head. They told me I needed to lose weight. In fact 60 lbs! So I am wondering how easy that would be for them to do when you cant hardly get out of bed some days. The specific exercise they told me to do was walking because it is "low impact". Really? Walking? On what scale do they consider "low-impact" to be helpful when you are going through excruciating pain DAILY! Have to lose weight to help it, but cant move to lose the weight. Go figure!


Ok friends off for now, I will gladly post any random rants or info I find and any info relating to my journey...ttfn!


~Liane