2 months away :/

Alright so I haven't posted anything for a bit but it doesn't mean much.

I have now lost a total of exactly 30 lbs!!! Which is amazing and I am so proud of myself. It now becomes a test of how well I can maintain the loss and keep losing. I hope I can lose AT LEAST 20 more before my surgery but without being able to workout consistently, that may or may not happen. It is becoming a bit ridiculous how none of my clothes fit. They are all too big. :) I am happy yes, but I am sad because I don't have any skinnier clothes to wear so all my clothes are falling off me and look sooo baggy. And I am not buying any clothes brand new since I will keep losing anyway...It seems to be bitter sweet at the moment. I can also tell SO much how and where the weight is coming off. Mainly my face and neck but everywhere else too. It is so crazy. I've had this corset for about 3 years and when I bought it, it barely fit me and has been too small for me to wear. It actually hurt to wear it and took forever to get on...Now, it goes on SO EASY and fits perfect, in fact I can use the smaller hooks on it now too. YAY :)

Other news: Daily pain continues. No exercise and limited movement. It is even getting so bad I am groaning in pain almost every time I drive home. I am just trying to make it to my surgery. Which BTW is coming SO DARN FAST. 59 DAYS!!! I am getting really anxious and nervous now that it is very near. I am getting really scared. I am happy yes, and excited to see what life can be like without the hurting and setbacks. But at the same time I cannot help but think about everything that could go wrong. It's terrifying! We have been stocking up on things I will need for the time alone.
We got a tall bedside table to hold a new lamp and it also has a space on the back which will be perfect for pill bottles and medicine to keep handy.
We also got a new dresser for the wall opposite the foot of the bed.
We also bought a new flat screen T.V. and got a cable box w/ remote for the room so I can watch TV.
We moved the bed over to accommodate the table which will also be room for me and my walker.
We will be moving the XBOX 360 into the room so I can play.
Some things we still need:
    Foam wedge for back support/sitting up in bed
    MORE PILLOWS
    "Grabber" tool
    Puzzles, puzzle books, and pens, maybe some art supplies, books.
    Toilet seat extender. I have a commode but while I am at home alone, it would be nice to actually use
    the toilet and not the bucket without having to squat so low.
    A travel cup/mug. Maybe a bottle thats easy to refill and easy to open/close that way I don't spill it    
    everywhere!!
    Someone suggested a  (cant remember that name) but it hooks onto walker/crutches to carry stuff.

We also need to shop, wrap and prepare for holiday season before it gets here because my surgery is December 20th and will be home most likely 24th or 25th which is 4-5 days post op and also happens to be Christmas eve and day. Will be interesting to find out how THAT goes.

Well I'll post more when I have it!!